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Dealing with grief

Posted in Uncategorized on June 11, 2013 by abraxus

My Father is not expected to be with us much longer. Being the analytical person I am I find myself trying to sort out my feelings on this from moment to moment with little success.

My Mother has found her peace with it and for that I will always be thankful. We are not an emotionally open Family my Mother and I so of course when either of us does crack it is explosive.

We almost never both crack at the same time but this was an exception and it was cathartic and ugly and raw but it was needed.

My Father was in agony and it broke me inside. My Father is the classic “Show no pain, shed no tear” type so for him to clutch my hand in the Hospital and choke out “I’m in Hell” destroyed me.

I’ll likely never recover fully from that. Right now he is finally resting peacefully which I am told is the best that can be hoped for. They don’t know how long he has so now my life is lived in fear of the phonecall we will get eventually.

We said our goodbyes and now I move from anger to sadness to fear in a nearly continuous cycle. He wouldn’t want this for me but I can’t help it. He’s my Father and I still need him.

I love you Dad.


Ah Android how I love thee

Posted in Uncategorized on October 4, 2011 by abraxus

Today I picked up the Droid app for my HTC and yes Virginia it IS made of win. Now on to the usual update: Life is good right now. Got promoted at work to Kitchen Manager finally, complete with a Teeny raise..I hope for more later.

Bills are getting paid still so no trouble there thankfully. Personal life not to shabby general happiness abounds. Tired though, could use some alone time.

Let’s see if I can manage to update more often with this new App!

Prince of Persia

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on May 31, 2010 by abraxus

So…was this movie supposed to suck as much as it did? I sort of feel like Ashton should be hopping out of a bush to say “Punk’d Ya!” any minute now. Seriously, that movie needed far more editing for trimming the fat off…most of it coming from Alfred Molina. An Actor I normally enjoy watching, he had an entertaining comic relief element to his character but it was allowed to go on about 15 minutes longer than it needed to.

Also Sir Ben Kingsley whom I am ordinarily a huge fan of..needs to stay away from Fantasy movies. He has no place in the fantastical setting whatsoever. In that genre his looks are so stereotypically ‘bad guy’ that it is no shock or mystery whatsoever that he is a villain.

One Star out of Five for Prince of Persia.

Every so often…

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , on April 15, 2010 by abraxus

I am just glad that this Blog is here. I am certainly among the masses of the Internet in that I started it, ran with it for a while and then left it to its own devices for extended periods of time. This does not change the fact that the level of catharsis I receive when I DO update it is exceptional to say the least.

Right now life is good on the whole. Bills are being paid on time, job is stable, car is back in shape post accident and I have enough things to keep me busy well into the significant future.

This morning I learned an important lesson about the Internet and that is: “RSS Feeds can not be trusted.” I have a Bar of the Blogs I follow with dedication much like many of us do I am sure. I check them usually 2-3 times a day time permitting and read/comment along where I have something worthwhile to add.

This morning it occurred to me that a few of my fellow Bloggers had not updated in a while so out of curiosity I stopped by the Links themselves and what do you think I found my friends?

That’s right…the RSS feed was not updating properly and I have/had missing out on almost a Month (in some cases multiple) of Updates! So I had a minor rage moment about that and have since spent the wee small hours of the morning getting privately caught up on the comings and goings of many of my Friends.

As for the news, let’s wander a minute shall we?

Weather – Improving, snow almost gone, Temps above freezing
Reading – Black Library like a voracious hound
Writing – Not so much these days. Muse = Dear John’d me
Personal – Getting better daily
Games – Final Fantasy vicariously through Chris, 40k always
Artistic – Painting Heroic 28mm 40k Figures, much fun
Physical – Tennis Elbow sucks!
Movies – Do they still make them? The good ones I mean…

In closing, I miss you Shelel. *squeezes&lippresses*

About last night

Posted in Uncategorized on January 12, 2010 by abraxus

At approx. 10 P.M. last night, on the way home from Edmonton I was involved in the aftermath of what I think might have been a Fatal car accident between a Mini-Van and a Semi. I’m grateful that Chris and I were not hurt and that the only damage seems to be cosmetic to our car…but beyond that I think it’s safe to say I am fucked up.

We hit what I think might have been the Mini-Vans front bumper and it got up under the engine, by the time I stopped the car on the side of the road we were about 150′ past the accident. It was sub-zero and the wind was up pretty good so it got damn cold when we left the car to check on the others involved.

Walking back down the road we came across a man with a flashlight, checked in on what had happened and learned that the Mini-Van had apparently crossed the Center line and impacted the Semi.

When we approached the Mini-Van the Paramedics were already arriving, thankfully we were not far from Smoky Lake. Chris saw something in the dark and said it might be a person. She was right. I think it was the driver..but the front of the Mini-Van was just gone.

I’m not sure if he lived, the Parameds asked everyone to return to their vehicles but the Ambulance never left the scene after they took the man to it nor did they stay in the Ambulance…I don’t think that was a good sign.

I guess I’m in a bit of shock still even now. The R.C.M.P. came by the car after the fact and took our information then sent us on our way when they determined the car was drivable.

My Insurance Co. wanted all sorts of information that I couldn’t give them so I have to wait for the Police Report to come in.

Heh I just got a call back from them, apparently I am at fault here because I struck a fixed object on the road. So it’s going to be a $250 Deductible and of course my Insurance will now go up.

A day in the life

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on November 24, 2009 by abraxus

Greetings my once and future readers! Since our last episode a few new things have happened out here in my neck of the Woods. Notable among them was a fairly lackluster October, even the annual festival of beggar children demanding candy from strangers was not as much fun as it usually is. I blame the fact that I had to work. Still I did see some lovely effort put forth on behalf of my co-workers when it came to costuming.

It has now been eleven years since I married my wife as we celebrated the Anniversary just a few days ago with a ritual trip into the big city for some shopping and other fun.

While we were there we took in the new Twilight Series movie New Moon. As much as I had no problem with the first of the movies I have to say this one felt much more like the book did to me and my wife. I could have done without the 17 minutes of previews that came before it though. As much as I like to see what is coming soon I don’t think I need to see EVERYTHING that is coming soon.

I am still in the process of reading the Warhammer 40k Series `The Horus Heresy`and I must say it is supremely interesting to me even 8 books in.

I’ve mostly finished the games I was playing when last I posted, and I did change my mind about the Kingdom Hearts game. It lost all appeal for me rather quickly and I have since consigned it to the bin of “Things to trade in to get other things” when I go to the Game Store next.

Just last evening I downloaded a Demo in my eternal search for something fun to play in the vein of ‘Diablo’ until Diablo 3 comes out of course. This most recent contender is called Torchlight which is a product of Perfect World Entertainment and Runic studios as well. I have previously played Perfect World (for which the company is named) so I thought it might be fun and indeed it was. My only beef with the demo is that you have 120 minutes of time and that is it. I would rather they allow me to play 5 levels of the game or something similar than have my gameplay yanked out from under me unceremoniously but alas. I may buy the game though, it is only 19.95 US and it was quite fun for the time I was able to play. Created in large part by some former Blizzard North employees from back in the days of Diablo I & II. Anyone looking for something in that genre can rest assured that Torchlight will not let you down.

I’ll sign off for now, I could talk more but this post has gotten long enough as it is. Perhaps I will update again in a few days since I am rather enjoying sitting here on the couch with the laptop.

Games, Life and things of that nature

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , on October 23, 2009 by abraxus

Lately I have been playing games a little more frequently than I have in the past. First off the block would be the new Kingdom Hearts game for the Nintendo DS, Kingdom Hearts 358/2. Ok so the title is ridiculous…but come on it’s a Square Enix Game and those people have been on their FINAL Fantasy for what? 10 years or more now?

KH 358/2 has the usual bizarre Story I have come to expect from the franchise in the past but it manages to make sense out of itself the more you play so you really do get into it in the same way as your Character, Roxas, does. As for the Gameplay…well that is where the game is shiny and dull all rolled into one. Environments are sorely lacking in this game when you get into a’s very much the Final Fantasy VII game look..if you are in the Wilderness you get the standard wilderness Combat area, in the towns you get the same Town Combat area. However the combat itself is engaging and simple so you don’t have to spell an alphabet and abuse your D-Pad in order to punch someone in the face. All in all it’s a good game in the Franchise and you can’t put enough value on the tour de force through the Disney game universe as you play. 3 out of 5.

Over to the PC I picked up the GotY Edition of Fallout 3 and I must say it is MUCH more fun on the PC than it was on the 360. There will never be any substitute for Mouse Aiming ever as far as I am concerned. Half of my problems with it on the 360 stemmed from having to aim with the left stick. Of course the PC lends its considerable graphical power to the mix so you can really upscale the resolution and details available so the Wasteland looks even more lushly disturbing. I never would have that that three hundred shades of brown, black and grey could look so good. Having the ability to patch easily and effectively is also well worth snagging it on the PC and the very first patch out there removed many issues that even the 360 users had to suffer.

One common issue was the game crashing on startup occasionally but that was easily solved with a trip to Google with the error message in hand. Turns out PC users just need to upgrade the MS Live component which Fallout consults on Startup. Easy as pie.

As the GotY edition comes with all of the currently available expansions you are getting a very large amount of gameplay and innovation for your $59 Canadian here. I suspect it will take me about 3 months to get through it all at least playing 2-3 hours a night. 5 out of 5.

PSPGo made its way into the world since the last time I Blogged so I thought I would mention that here as well. I took my old PSP and games into EB Games when it came out and traded the whole mess in towards a PSPGo and ending up paying $40 for my PSPGo after all was said and done.

It’s a very lovely system, a vast improvement over the PSP Slim for sure. Removal of the UMD Drive has allowed them to really drop both bulk and weight from the design making it much easier to carry with you. 16 Megs of Flash Memory built in gives you alot of room to play with and the average DLed game from the PSN runs around 1.2 – 1.5 Gigs in size so you can easily hold several games on your PSPGo without worry.

MediaGo is the PSPGos new Media Manager and it does the job splendidly with the usual “Import your Old Library” settings and the option to Scan specific areas for new content as well. One thing worth mention for sure is that the new PSPGo has a much more robust Codec when it comes to playing content. My old PSP was stubborn when it came to playing most Video files but with the PSPgo I have yet to run into that issue.

With the slide out screen the system is just plain gorgeous. If I had any single beef about the whole thing it is the memory Stick slot…they have abandoned the Pro Stick Duo format in favor of the M2..which is a Micro Card. So all of my Pro Stick Duos are now rendered useless when it comes to my PSPGo. Boo on Sony for that needless bit of folly. 4 out of 5.

On to Movies! I picked up Underworld: Rise of the Lycans and was well and truly impressed by it. The people behind this entire series are to be commended for their skill at keeping the interest of the Movie-Goer interested across three movies of varying content. I was happy to delve into the backstory of this Universe and would love to see them go further with it but sadly Rise of the Lycans hasn’t had much luck in the Theatre though I hear it is doing well as a DVD release. Hopefully if they do a 4th movie in this franchise they will get enough of a budget to do it justice. 4 out of 5.

Transformers Revenge of the Fallen. I am SO very torn with this movie…I thought the character of The Fallen was entirely without merit bordering on Cheeseball. I would have been happier if the ‘Revenge of the Fallen’ had been the remaining Decepticons banding together to bring back Megatron and go from there. That aside I did like the movie as a whole I cannot express how happy I am that they brought back everyone from Voice Actors to Character Actors for this one. 4 out of 5.

Ok almost done folks, if you’re still with me at all of course lol.

Books…*cue the Evil Empire Music* (or Shelels Theme if you prefer *chuckle*)

Dan Brown..of how you let me down this time out. The Lost Symbol ladies and gentlemen…is just not what I was hoping for. I had guessed the Villain, the circumstances around him becoming the Villain and his motivations by the time I reached the 20 page mark. Now, taking all that into account, it is NOT a bad book. I was just shocked at how easily I had seen the eventual outcome. Brown keeps the reader entertained with Robert Langdon as easily as one would expect and for that I thank him. As people have come to expect he carries us along with a story littered with revelations about the way we see things and keeps the reader astonished at some of the truly strange things that lie right in their back yards in some cases. More than once I put the book down to go and Google on revelation or another and I love that the book kept me doing that time and time again.

One more point of contention..Brown of course makes a point of putting his protagonist into claustrophobic situations here and there…but nothing ever seems to come of it aside from Robert making mention of his tragic past accident and being nervous for a bit…I never really was given the impression that he was genuinely afraid of confined spaces.

All in all it is a good book, the ending twist was really interesting but I would love to see him take another direction with his next book. 4 out of 5.

Life. Life is busy. I work 6 days a week more often than not and in all honesty I sometimes don’t even make an 80 hour paycheck out of those 6 days. Business has been down recently between the economy and the OilField shutting down some local projects. I am grateful for what I have though, there are many folks worse off than I right now. Chris and I are doing well all in all, she is going to the Gym twice a week with a friend of hers from work that is running the Olympic Torch (which is coming right through our little Town/City/Village thing) on its way to Vancouver for 2010. She just got done an 8 week Yoga Course that she really enjoyed as well. We’re looking at maybe getting a pair of Year Memberships for the Yule Season this year.

Right now my life is work. I come home, eat, sleep, play the odd game for a bit, then head back to work for the most part. Don’t really have much time for the social/recreational as my schedule at work generally takes up from 8 Am to 8:30 P.M. daily. Bills are getting paid though, can’t complain.

And that is that for now everyone, thanks for reading!

Oh and Yoshi if you read this, still no luck getting through yet =/